Hi my name is Destiny.
I was seeing Brad a married man for several years and I loved him passionately but there was also a sadness attached along with a loss of dignity etc etc. You know? The whole married man/single woman routine. Then I looked up an old boyfriend, Ean and we started seeing one another. I soon ended things with Brad. Ean treats me like a queen. He's the greatest and I adore him. I am so happy to have him in my life! Sounds like a happy ending doesn't it? Well it doesn't stop there!
You see I soon discovered that even though I was really happy with Ean Brad was still there in my heart and my soul and I was miserable without him. I still loved him and wanted him. I tried to forget him, really I did. Tried to move on, but I found myself drawn to him, needing him, hungering for him in the worst way. Oh don't get me wrong I still hungered for Ean too. I wanted them both. I yearned for what they both give me. I know it sounds horribly selfish and in that respect I guess I am but I had to have them both!
I should probably mention that I've always been a very sexual woman. I need a lot of sex and I'm quite passionate. Ean gives me lots of sex and he's fun and he likes to experiment but at the same time Brad gives the passion that I crave and he is somewhat dominant and I have a submissive side and he speaks to that.
In all of my years with Brad I've submitted to him over and over again. I pull away I try to leave, add other men to the mix, yada yada yada...and then the next thing I know I'm on my knees admitting what a slut I am for him and his cock. I don't pretend to understand this. It just is the way it is for us. Also with Brad I can tell all of my secrets to. He's the best friend I've ever had.
Ean on the other hand is the pal around buddy that I hang out with. The one who caters to the princess in me. The princess needs to be catered to. The slut needs to be tended. I need more than one man to handle these. It's just the way it is for me. I know some of you will hate me for this and you'll hate Brad too. So you are the ones I don't want to hear from and if I do I'll just delete your comments and they will never be publicly seen at least not here on my blog. No haters allowed.
This blog is intended to offer an honest account into the mind of a highly sexed woman in love and lust with two men. It's intended to offer you insight as well as perhaps to myself also.
I wonder if perhaps we were all designed to love more than one individual at a time. I wish this could be an open arrangement and that I could be honest with Ean but Ean is very jealous and doesn't like to share. I love Ean and don't want to give him up just because he wouldn't accept an open relationship. It is my intention to love Ean so well that he would never suspect and never go for nought. It is also my intention to love Brad as best I can in the moments that we can steal away together.
It is not my intention to hurt either. I want us all to be happy. I will do everything I can to prevent Ean from ever learning the truth. Believe it or not Brad and I are two of the nicest people I know but we are both very sexual and passionate if not a bit polyamorous. I've had some trouble myself accepting the poly in Brad because I tend to be a possessive lover although at the same time it can be arousing at times to me. Brad on the other hand has done a much better job of accepting my need for more than one partner and often enjoys it. I am trying to accept Brad's marriage and hoping it will be easier this time around now that I'm in a stable relationship myself. It's something I've strived to do since the inception and failed miserably up to now. You see I'm not really a very good sharer, especially when I love someone. Now, see? I told you this would be an honest account. The only untruths you will find within these pages will be merely a means to protect the innocent and the not so innocent. Therefore some names, descriptions etc may be fictional.
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