The Love of Two Men

I am excitingly anticipating my next visit with Brad. It is sure to be better for me this time now that I've got the first time out of the way. I would like to say that this doesn't change anything between Ean and I but that would be a lie. I can feel the shift in the relationship and I know he can too. This isn't necessarily a bad thing but there is a shift.

I find I have to work harder and being close to Ean. Perhaps this will be better and easier with practice for I truly don't want to take anything away from Ean. There are two different kinds of love involved here. What I feel for Brad is so much different than what I feel for Ean.

Brad makes me feel alive he awakens the passion within me. Ean is more of a gentle love. He is kind and gentle and makes me feel content and comfortable in his arms. I need both of those things but haven't been able to find them all rolled into one man....oh if only I could!

I need the body rubs, the sweet kisses on my neck the loving whispers in my ear. I need the man who is so eager to please me in bed, doing all he can to make me cum multiple times and not satisfied until I'm practically lifeless on the bed. Yes I need all of that. I need the companionship while doing simple things like watching tv or cooking a meal. I need that person who I can rely on when things go wrong. Someone who looks out for me and trys to make sure I'm okay. Who fixes things and keeps things maintained. I need that all. But too I need the wild passionate kisses, the dirty talking, the roughness, the dominance and submission that Brad and I share. I ache to feel his hands in my hair pulling as he drives his stiff cock through my painted lips and fucks my mouth like his very own private fuck hole. God I need that!