Thoughts and Some Fantasy

Basically I spent this week putting my feelings into perspective I guess you could say. When I was with Brad last time it was difficult to be close to him. I mean affectionate because I had yet to figure out how I felt and was holding back. I was hesitant and unsure of what I was doing and where I wanted this to go. There was a part of me that believed (like the alcoholic to the drink) that I could just be with him one time and get him out of my system. Yeah right! Like that would ever happen! That man will never be out of my system.

I guess I had to decide to accept that. Now this week I feel different. I want to be close with Brad in just the way we've been for years. I want to touch him, to hold him, to scratch his back. I want to kiss him passionately and all but swallow him up! I want to kiss him until neither of us can stand another moment and in that fiery passion Brad pushes me to my knees and pulls out his hard cock and stuffs it in between my lips. I want to be his!

But tonight with Ean. I realized how much I want to be close with him too. I want to hold him, to caress him, to scratch his back too. I want to feel him caress me and make my body tingle. I want to be pleasured into oblivion like he so often does for me.

I couldn't see Brad this week but he was strong on my mind! I used my dildo and my vibrator as I imagined scenarios with him. I imagined scenarios with Ean too. I imagined bringing home a beautiful young woman to share with Ean. Oh Ean would love that! I'd kiss her and slowly disrobe her kissing and licking my way down her neck to her breasts licking and sucking each rosy nipple. Then I'd lay her back and kiss my way down her belly till I reached her lovely shaved jewel. I'd lick her clit, licking pleasure into her body and tasting her sweet womanly juices. I'd take Eans hand and lead him to her breasts and Ean would begin to suck and fondle her while I licked the orgasm out of her body. Then I'd tell Ean, "Go on baby Fuck her!" With permission granted Ean wouldn't waste anytime sliding his cock into her wet pussy. "Fuck her hard! Fuck her like a whore!" I'd demand and watch him fuck her brains out....then my mind shifted back to Brad and I imagined his hands in my hair holding my hair tightly demanding, "Suck that cock you whore!" That was all it took and I was cumming hard imagining his cock pulsating in my throat.

God I love having two men to love!