Where I'm At

I'm still in the early stages of this new phase in my life. So I understand that it's going to take awhile before I get it all together. I don't really feel guilty as I do worried about getting caught. There I said it and that might make me a horrible person but I thought it best to be totally honest. I dont feel guilty because I think that for the first time in my life I'm being true to me. Something I've really never been before. Also who better knows the whys of these circumstances than me and I understand clearly how I came to this point. And this point does appear to be the only workable solution. Hence, there is no reason to feel guilty. Well as long as I don't get caught, that is.

I like what both of these men offer me. I would tell you more about my sexcapades with Ean to help you understand perhaps a little better but I don't want to get caught so I can't go sharing every explicit detail that we share. Our sexual play is very unique too and almost on the opposite spectrum of Brad and I.

Yes, if there is one thing I want to ensure its that I dont get caught. I don't want to get caught because it would hurt Ean desperately and I would never want to hurt him. He would also be very disappointed in me and that would hurt me.

It's only cheating if you get caught, right? And what they don't know wont hurt them. So I intend to not get caught and never hurt him! Even if that means I have to sacrafice my own pleasure from time to time by not seeing Brad everytime I want. I have to remain rational even while my heart is filled with passionate yearnings and I ache to be on my knees at Brads feet pleasuring his beautiful cock. I have to control my ravenouous slutty intentions when need be. I have to! There just are no other options.